Why are you so unhappy? We’ve all always put you first. When we’re busy doing our work, we still stop for you, with no complaints. When you’re unhappy, I come and help you through. Why are you so unhappy?

I’ve had enough handling this over and over again. I did this 4 years there, I don’t want to have to do this here. That’s what made me run away then, don’t make me run away now. I feel my creativity stagnant here. I don’t have the confidence to share, to explore, to experiment here. What if it’s not good enough?

I want a place all to myself. Yes that is selfish, but I will love you more away from you. I care more away from you. I need to make something of myself. I need to find someone for myself. I need to do a lot of things for myself to make you happy.

Yes I am someone that is rebellious. Someone that seems with no goals, honestly yes, but I am still figuring out. If it takes me 10 years, just be there with me. I need my own studio to myself, that will my diary. I need space. Just space.

I sound so selfish.